Welcome back DB. The whole joint was starting to fall down around us in your absence but hopefully now we shall all try and get back on an even keel. I love your messages of support to others here and it simply reinforces my opinion of you as a truly beautiful human being who although not in the best of health, still takes the time to think of others above himself.
If nothing else my texting skills improved twenty fold over the last few weeks and our conversations were shall we say, quite enlightening. Don't know about the two bags of drugs that you went home with but it certainly seemed that you got a fair amount of them into you while you were in hospital, if you know what I mean... lol. You were on cloud nine there for a while and I still have not been able to decipher one of the messages you sent me, lol. Obviously the Drs have been able to rectify, to a degree, the problems that sent you in to hospital in the first place. A few days home and then back in....
Hopefully those despairing thoughts, if not well and truly gone from your head, are now only background noise; It was pretty obvious you were at a low and struggling with things and in the light of a comment in a post by you earlier a light bulb has gone in my head. Never think of yourself as selfish, never feel like you need to apologise, none of us can ever really know the pain and despair you were feeling over the last two weeks. Don't forget the deal; if at anytime you need to text or talk, PM ,whatever, you know that you can contact me.
Seriously though, positive times are ahead for you DB, just keep believing and keep on fighting the good fight. Good to hear that although you are not 100% that the green light is still on for that kidney transplant. The stay you had in hospital was by no means a restful one, that much is obvious, so sit back; put those footy sized feet up and recover your strength as best you can. Absolutely you can do this because God still has plans for you my friend.