How are you today MastaDogg?
Now that you have had time to take everything in and get your head around what is actually happening, how are you coping? How is your Mum?
I lost my Mum to lung cancer in 1985, but the memory of the day she passed is still fresh in my mind; the massive hole in my heart when I saw her at the hospital: too late to say a proper goodbye. However I also keep in mind a lot of other things that we did together in the happy times, the laughter we shared and the tears. Gosh I miss her, but there is always a little piece of her in my heart and my mind and believe it or not I still dream of her, mostly when things are a bit tough. In my dreams she is the Mum I knew before she got sick.
She was my best mate as I was the only girl of four children. We did not have a lot of time to dwell on Mum's illness as she was gone four months to the day of diagnosis, just after the wedding of my youngest brother who was the last of us all to wed. She went with dignity and knowing that we all would have the comfort of a good family to help us through. I really believe she waited until we were all best able to cope.
I hope your Mum gets to experience a good quality of life for the time she has left with you and I know that the time you have with her will mean the world to you both. Take every day as it comes and experience all the good things left for you and her. Don't dwell on the inevitable but keep the memories of the positive things alive. She will need your support and I know you will give it to her. Talk to her, ask her how she is feeling about everything . Tell her you love her each and every day and give her lots of hugs and let her know that you will eventually be okay afterwards.
Look after yourself too because your health is important and vent any negative feelings to your 'family' on the kennel. Don't be shy to PM me ( as I am also sure others would not mind either if you contact them) if you feel uncomfortable expressing any of your thoughts in the public forum and you should want to talk. The people I have 'met' here on the kennel and in real life are the best of the best and have truly renewed my faith in human kind. Good people all of them.God bless you mate; both you and your Mum will be in my thoughts and prayers.