The last time I posted here, I still remember pretty clearly, it was the early hours of the morning, there was a light rain and I was sitting outside the hospital preparing myself for the worst... much like right now.
From day one they gave our little princess little chance, she defied the odds over and over... she absolutely refused to give in everytime they gave her a timeframe.
They said she wouldn't make it past 2 weeks when she was first diagnosed, she proved them wrong.
They said she had less than a 15% shot at lasting a few months after that, she defied those odds.
They said she wouldn't see her 3rd birthday, it was no surprise that she broke that barrier and soldiered on.
Earlier this year, she was taken to hospital and we were told to say our last goodbyes on a daily basis every single day for over a month... It slowly became obvious as each day passed that Lili was not going to leave us as quick as they said.
So my family decided to bring her home and continue treating her with medications from around the world in hopes that something would work.
My parents worked around the clock tending to her every need, working on 2 hours of sleep every day and spending the rest by her side. Never leaving her alone for a second.
I've never witnessed 2 people do the things they've managed to endure for so long.
Unfortunately, as hard as my baby girl fought, her little body decided enough was enough last night.
It obvious now what she was fighting for... what she was waiting for... Her 6th birthday.
They told her she'd never see her 6th birthday. She held on with every ounce of her being to see this day, and she did.
There's not much anyone can do to prepare for the loss of an angel. Tonight the piece that held my world together has gone.
I feel a little relief knowing she's not in pain anymore, but the regret I feel that my daughter's will grow older and their memories of their aunty will fade and eventually they will forget her is tearing me apart. There wasn't a single person in the world who use to look at me with the amount of love she had in her eyes. I would walk into a crowded room and her eyes would lock on me instantly and wouldn't look away till I gave her my full attention and sat by her side. She was my #1 fan, and I, forever hers.
If only our love could keep her alive, she'd live forever.
Lili
20/04/2011
20/04/2017
Having been absent for periods of time on the Kennel of late and just getting back into posting I was scrolling through the lounge today, something I have not done for quite a while and noted that there had been a post on this thread dated May 2 a long time after your post around January talking about how futile things seemed.
My heart sank and my worst fears were confirmed when I read the last page of posts. Not wanting to, but knowing that I must I came back to this post, my one immediate response was anger mixed with the sadness of knowing that the precious little one had been called away from this world and torn from the arms of her family.
Trendsetter, my heart aches for you and yours; I feel the unfairness of someone so young leaving before her life had really begun. I cry a tear, not ever having met her but feeling that I did know her in some small way through your story posted here on the Kennel.
Truth be told after events in our family lives over the last six months I had begun to question whether or not the man upstairs really had a feel for those here on earth. This is how I felt when I read this sad news, but, then after reflection upon how things have turned out for us I realised that although a lot of things that happen to us are unfair and I guess a lot would say unjust that sadness can still be tempered with a type of joy.
The joy of that loved one having been with us at all, the fond memories of the good days, when things were less complicated and illness not thought of, the bravery and dogged determination of those who fight the good fight never wanting to give up lest they disappoint those who love them and will mourn their loss. The grief we feel at that loss is also a measure of the immense love we held for that person and they for us.
Thank you for sharing the story of the beautiful little one, her picture that you posted so early on has stayed with me to this day. I know it has been a time since she left and the sadness is still very raw with you but please try not to overly dwell on the unfairness, difficult though it may be, rejoice in that love you shared, that bond that will never be broken, God bless that beautiful little girl who touched our hearts and minds and know that she will always look over you.
Family looks after family and I know everyone on the Kennel will always be there for you. Take time to set yourself straight and when you are ready and the time is right, and it shall be, come back to us and let us know how you are coping.