So I have finished up work and spent the last 2 days getting drunk ( which I know I shouldn't have ) but it happens sometimes when I am having a downer. Problem is it makes me feel worse when I sober up. Anyhow, I have made the decision to give up alcohol all together now (and the fact I am out of work so have to be smarter with my money ) as it's only going to make things worse for me. I just have mixed feelings going on inside me and also stressing about things now I am unemployed. All I know is I need to stay away from alcohol, as my self hate is at a high right now a long with just stressing about the uncertainty of things. Tomorrow I'm hoping to update the old resume and start the process of searching for work. Though right now I feel burnt out as i have previously been pushing myself hard the last few months at work. Just feel mentally and physically drained.