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Well my sleep is improving.
I was awake from 1 am last night. But made it to 3 am tonight.

The anxiety and grief effecting sleep thing is so annoying.
It’s the processing of all the emotions that makes me so wired when I wake.

I know it’s just a process and will get better.
 

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Is why talking can help for most.
Hope that's the case for you too.
 

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Is why talking can help for most.
Hope that's the case for you too.
For me I don't have anyone to talk to personally.

No one wants to hear anyone talk bad about themselves.

I've been trying to run my negative thoughts into the curb but can't do it.

Even my colleagues at work value me more than I do myself.
 

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For me I don't have anyone to talk to personally.

No one wants to hear anyone talk bad about themselves.

I've been trying to run my negative thoughts into the curb but can't do it.

Even my colleagues at work value me more than I do myself.
Yeah man. I get it. You need to work on that negative self talk.
I personally believe we all need to speak to a counsellor. I have been regularly over this last year.

If you can’t deal with the negative thoughts on your own then the bravest thing to do is seek help and be strong enough to be vulnerable.

I feel really strong, and really sad and vulnerable at the same time.
 

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Yeah man. I get it. You need to work on that negative self talk.
I personally believe we all need to speak to a counsellor. I have been regularly over this last year.

If you can’t deal with the negative thoughts on your own then the bravest thing to do is seek help and be strong enough to be vulnerable.

I feel really strong, and really sad and vulnerable at the same time.
I feel the same as you.

I can only imagine how you feelnow after being with someone you love and now he's gone.

This is why we shouldn't take our lives for granted.

Never know when your number is going to be up?
 

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Yeah man. I get it. You need to work on that negative self talk.
I personally believe we all need to speak to a counsellor. I have been regularly over this last year.

If you can’t deal with the negative thoughts on your own then the bravest thing to do is seek help and be strong enough to be vulnerable.

I feel really strong, and really sad and vulnerable at the same time.
Every time when they bring me back from death I can't help but feel guilty that I survived 12 times and I'm still here but my favourite people in my life (my Dad, 2 uncles and my cousin) didn't get a 2nd, 3rd or let alone 12th chance.

I honestly don't give a fuck about myself, it's all about setting my kids properly before checking out.
 

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Wow Assassin honestly that is crazy.
Your perspective and strength are incredible. So sorry you lost those people.
A pastor friend of mine said to me that my cousin, as a Christian, was feeling a warmth and comfort that we on earth could ever know.
That’s was really comforting for me.

We i made it to 3:30 this morning. Getting further into the night everyday.
 

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Well I just finished the 3rd dose of the methlyprednisolone and now have roid rage hard.

If I upset any normal member I'm sorry, if you're one of the few ***** on here, not sorry and you probably deserve it lol

The plasma exchange and chemo starts next Monday hopefully.
 

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Wow Assassin honestly that is crazy.
Your perspective and strength are incredible. So sorry you lost those people.
A pastor friend of mine said to me that my cousin, as a Christian, was feeling a warmth and comfort that we on earth could ever know.
That’s was really comforting for me.

We i made it to 3:30 this morning. Getting further into the night everyday.
How you hanging in there mate? Under the circumstances I hope you are ok
 

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Well I just finished the 3rd dose of the methlyprednisolone and now have roid rage hard.

If I upset any normal member I'm sorry, if you're one of the few ***** on here, not sorry and you probably deserve it lol

The plasma exchange and chemo starts next Monday hopefully.
St. Vincent’s echoes with the sound of..I want my bed bath nurse..and I want it hot..and the water too!!!

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Don't get me angry, you won't like it when I'm angry lol
Interesting you discuss that Assasin.
I am an absolute pacifist- I have been called a pussy before and physically I unfortunately agree. Lol.
I am an endurance athlete - marathon runner - but essentially a skinny nerd.
But I have had serious bouts of anger over last 24 hours and I understand I will continue to have them. I get the grief reaction cycle.

Is there a meme I could use of a skinny weakling have a rage episode.
If so I would use that.

People posting on my cousins fb page, a unofficial police tribute website posting and speculating about his death. Our kids school email unemotionally about his death.
I have been furious. Irrationally.

It’s such a suffocating and trapping emotion- I hate it.
 

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Interesting you discuss that Assasin.
I am an absolute pacifist- I have been called a pussy before and physically I unfortunately agree. Lol.
I am an endurance athlete - marathon runner - but essentially a skinny nerd.
But I have had serious bouts of anger over last 24 hours and I understand I will continue to have them. I get the grief reaction cycle.

Is there a meme I could use of a skinny weakling have a rage episode.
If so I would use that.

People posting on my cousins fb page, a unofficial police tribute website posting and speculating about his death. Our kids school email unemotionally about his death.
I have been furious. Irrationally.

It’s such a suffocating and trapping emotion- I hate it.
Hey Duke I was wondering how you have been doing?
But you have posted already.

I know its hard but do your best to disregard social media speculation.

Also the way you describe yourself.
A fit,skinny marathon runner,nerd who has rage, I now have it in my mind that you have red hair! Haha.
Are you a red head?
 

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Interesting you discuss that Assasin.
I am an absolute pacifist- I have been called a pussy before and physically I unfortunately agree. Lol.
I am an endurance athlete - marathon runner - but essentially a skinny nerd.
But I have had serious bouts of anger over last 24 hours and I understand I will continue to have them. I get the grief reaction cycle.

Is there a meme I could use of a skinny weakling have a rage episode.
If so I would use that.

People posting on my cousins fb page, a unofficial police tribute website posting and speculating about his death. Our kids school email unemotionally about his death.
I have been furious. Irrationally.

It’s such a suffocating and trapping emotion- I hate it.
My man no athlete is as tough as a marathon run..It is a lonely fight.. A battle within yourself.. When you hit the wall.. only you can get yourself through it..And I’m sure you’ve done that time and time again..So with that in mind you have the capacity to fight.. To fight your way through this terrible tragedy..this wall..and come out the other side.. But guess what? You aren’t alone this time.. You have your family your friends.. And as you can see your brothers in The Kennel with you.. You got this..we got this.
 

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Interesting you discuss that Assasin.
I am an absolute pacifist- I have been called a pussy before and physically I unfortunately agree. Lol.
I am an endurance athlete - marathon runner - but essentially a skinny nerd.
But I have had serious bouts of anger over last 24 hours and I understand I will continue to have them. I get the grief reaction cycle.

Is there a meme I could use of a skinny weakling have a rage episode.
If so I would use that.

People posting on my cousins fb page, a unofficial police tribute website posting and speculating about his death. Our kids school email unemotionally about his death.
I have been furious. Irrationally.

It’s such a suffocating and trapping emotion- I hate it.
You have every right to get angry my brother, it's our primal emotion and probably our strongest one too.

PS we all have our style to deal and funnily enough we both reverted to our physical style, you as a marathon runner and me returning to my boxing days.

Whatever gets us through my bro.
 

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I miss you brother!

How are the trains treating you? How is the family?
I am just so fucking lazy, I get ZERO time on the computer these days, I used to spend half my work day on this forum when I was tied to a computer, nowadays, can't do that.

The Trains... LOVE IT tbh, we are living out near Campbelltown these days and am only 20 mins from work :grinning:

The kids, crazy as ever just getting taller.

How are your family doing?
 

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I am just so fucking lazy, I get ZERO time on the computer these days, I used to spend half my work day on this forum when I was tied to a computer, nowadays, can't do that.

The Trains... LOVE IT tbh, we are living out near Campbelltown these days and am only 20 mins from work :grinning:

The kids, crazy as ever just getting taller.

How are your family doing?
Awesome! KE is at Gregory Hills and works in Campbelltown and mum and sis live in Oran Park.

Family is going good brother, I have a quiet day inside today so they are coming to run amok in the heart ward later lol
 

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I am just so fucking lazy, I get ZERO time on the computer these days, I used to spend half my work day on this forum when I was tied to a computer, nowadays, can't do that.

The Trains... LOVE IT tbh, we are living out near Campbelltown these days and am only 20 mins from work :grinning:

The kids, crazy as ever just getting taller.

How are your family doing?
Curious if you're public or private.
 
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